I will not be afraid to admit defeat, especially when I tried my best. I am the tortoise and the hare. The hare in me wants to race to the finish and be done with what I'm doing. That means, rushing through things and not stopping when I don't comprehend the instructions or consept. I panic at the end and think that I have no clue what this is! I don't understand it! I can't do it! I have set myself up for failure.
I have to stop myself and say, "Wait, do I really understand this? I'm not sure. But I should go back and look at it again." That is the tortoise in me. I go back and reread, re-evaluate. The best thing for me is to go over things step by step, over and over until I truly understand it. Then I move on.
Tutorials are nice when I know the basic concepts and I can follow along and can predict what is coming next. That's when I truly feel that I have learned something. But when I'm not familiar with the concepts that a tutorial goes over, I'm lost. "But why is it this way? What is that for? How did it get to this?" Now I'm lost down a rabbit hole that I should haven't gone down. BUT, if I stop and look up what everything is, do my own research, I start to get the hang of the content and I'm able to follow along and understand it better.
Learning new things is hard. It always is. It's like a dark doorway that you don't know where it goes. The current room that you are in is small and plain, boring, nowhere to go but through that doorway. But that way is full of uncertainty, the unknown. This room, is so small and cramped, it's difficult to move, to function. Stay here, or go and find out what's through that doorway. It may lead to a much larger room, or better yet, wide open space.
I picked the doorway. I'm not growing where I'm at, I out grew it a long time ago. I have been comfortable for too long. I was just afraid to see what was next for me.
I'm glad I did.